Random Thoughts of a Vampire
In this day and time, it's quite ironic to see how humans and vampires can coexist in the same society. Those who were once considered as our...heh, "supplementary diet", have recently started building a place for us to dwell in. Not only that, but they have also become engrossed in our existence to the point of seeking us out. This, however, is natural. Humans by nature are curious creatures. Once their minds have been introduced to an unfamiliar thing, they will act to it in either of two ways: neglect it and become ignorant for all time, or find a way to get closer to it in order to uncover what they can about it. This merging of worlds...this was already an expected outcome from the start.
Ironically though, as much as people would create images of us in their minds, their common perspective of us is false. To think that they'd want to know more about us, when they themselves merely rely on some cheap folklore or badly pieced urban legend. I still believe that there's no point in seeking us out if they merely think we're monsters from some made up story.
It can’t be helped, I guess.
Humans have been presented with only little facts of our true existence. It's particularly hard to grasp what our true nature is really like. In turn, vampires, who have been living with humans for centuries, have grasped a human's understanding and perspectives. I believe only a handful of humans know of our coexistence. We live under their noses, but the majority would refuse to believe if one of our kin decided on disclosure. The average, narrow minded fool would often believe that we're crazy or that we're making it up, and that simply makes us believe that humanity is not ready for the truth that they've always desired to gain.
It's quite surprising how they've created different sorts of deviations of us; The media being the biggest contributors to these. From merciless slaughterers of the night to loving sparkling wonders that try so hard to deceive humans...our image has been tainted. Where did all the decent ponderers go?
We’re depicted as scum who kill and drink blood for no good reason, murderers, beings who have a weird blood fetish whom reside on the edge of insanity. We vampires, however, can contain our blood-lust. Does everyone think that we always feed on a live host? We can drink medical blood if we want. We can drink the blood of animals if we're desperate...we can feed by accumulating a human's energy. We're not simply limited to blood alone...even though it's quite the healthy meal...gives us more strength...and is much more appealing.
On another side note...what vampire sparkles under the sun's light? For centuries...Vampires have evolved. Our Ancestral kin were shunned during the day in fear of turning to dust. As the years passed, the later generation ventured out into daylight. They didn’t die from exposure, but since undead skin isn’t actually as good as the real thing, they suffer from skin burns. Minimal amounts of sunlight aren’t as life threatening as movies make it seem. Now, harsh sun rays; that would be a problem. A few years after suffering this curse, vampires began to breed with humans. Dhampirs. They don’t burn under the sun due to the lineage they get from their human parent (which is usually the mother). And then as the years passed again, we vampires have grown to become accustomed to light. But it doesn’t mean we sparkle under its influence. We get sunburns but we never sparkle. We're not some kind of divine being; we were coined "monsters" by this ignorant race at one point, after all.
Hmn...I will never come to understand how humans think.
But I suppose something that makes us noteworthy is our ability to charm people. We don’t sparkle to make ourselves appear charming. We are by nature mysteriously seductive without even trying. Perhaps it's in the way we move, act, speak, and think. It could also be because of our physical looks. Our eyes alone can do the talking. Hypnotic, if one would wish it to be, and this is the aura of our charm. We don’t need words to convey any message. We can simply glance at someone, offer a smile, and then they'll follow like mindless pets. The human heart can be so weak at times.
There is something that bothers me though: The misconception that we fall in love or express any emotion. In truth, if you're a vampire or if you're turned to one, you lose all those feelings. You become cold and ruthless. The reason why we can’t express it though, as if it is natural, is because we comprehend what it is. It's a weapon, if you will. Because we comprehend, we are able to showcase it. Emotions in itself are an abomination; a weakness. But it's the kind of weakness that, when used properly, becomes a frightening tool. We don’t fall in love, we only fancy. When we feel compelled to protect a human, it's because we are fond of them. Some might think that it's because the human belongs to them. A vampire protecting another is brought about by kindred spirit. As for Dhampirs and Dhampiresas, they'll always be a traitor to both races due to being part human and part vampire...it's quite the complication really.
But even with this kind of complication, they are living together peacefully now.
Ah, who am I lying too, really? It's almost a one sided relation. Only a handful of the populace believes. The Majority is oblivious. This must be the secret to this peaceful coexistence.
Then again, this little girl's mind vouching for me isn’t exactly what I'd call the mind of an expert. However, it’s close enough to be seen as someone who has a grasp of what the truth might be. Has she encountered one? Probably. I can’t tell.
Although, I believe this one thing to be true:
They don’t make vampires like they used too in the old days.
A vampire's name in this present time is robbed of it’s true meaning. The lot who claims to be our Kin...abhors us. This does not apply to all...just to the mass that confuses themselves with us.
We are married to the darkness. Those who desire us simply for immortality and thrill are fools. Do they think that watching the decades pass is a thing of amusement? To be honest, it gets quite dull after a while. The world will change and so will the people whom reside in it. But these are all just hollow shells trying to cover up the last generation of the world. Change, as constant as it is, cannot prevent a soul from being corrupt. It cannot prevent the deterioration of nature. Change cannot completely secure life, and watching this for centuries... is like watching a replay of a boring old drama.
It's rather foolish to think that eternal damnation(immortality) is a thing of wonder. But of course, this is just me. The thoughts possessed by my other kin may differ from mine. I cannot force my ideals on them since that is disrespect. These are merely opinions and musings coming from a rather bored and contemplative child of the night.
Ahahaha, that's just my little rantings...or should I say that annoying vampire that lives inside my head. -points at the post- See, SEE?! He even insulted me there! Ah but I guess that can be considered a complement as well.
I'm just glad that you guys decided to drop by and take a look at this serene little place. I guess this could be called my little black box. A get away from the vices of the world. It's nice here I guess. Quite and very much peaceful.
The winds are blowing and the night fowls sing in their little happy orchestra. It's a beautiful place. And I only hope that you will feel at home in my world as well. Enjoy~