'My chest hurts, it hurts so much, no, it isn't my chest, it's my heart, it hurts, I new wen I started feeling like this that making it go away would hurt more than keeping it, but I thought that it would go away on it's owne, and I had no ideah that it would be this painfull, that's why I have to leave now, I can't stay any longer because it'll just hurt even more, so I have to leave now, I can't tell him, it'll only hurt him more, but I wounder, will it hurt him more if I tell him I love him, then it will if I lied and said that I hated him? I don't no, but, if I lie, then the pain will eventually stop and I'll go numb, but if I tell him I love him, and he rejects me, then I'll always be in pain, and the same goes for him, so this is better, it'll be so much easyer on him if I leave now, the only reason that he's putting up with me now is because he promised that he would always protect me, but he only did that because he felt responsibe some how, so this'll be easier right?' Rukia thought, sliding open the closet door and getting out quietly, she opened the window, then felt something tightly grip her arm, 'I didn't even realize that he was behind me!' she thought turning around, "Ichigo," "Were do you think you're going?!" "I- I'm leaving Ichigo!" "Why?!" "Because I, I can't stay! I can't keep doing this! It hurts too much!" "Wat are you talking about?!" she took in a deep breath, and pulled his hand off of her arm, then, with all the strenth she had, she looked up and yelled, "Ichigo! I hate you!" and jumped out the window, she didn't want to see his face, she didn't want to see the hurt painted all over his face and stained in his eyes, her legs were trembeling and she could only run a few blocks before they gave out, she crawled into an alley and pulled her nees to her chest, her body was shaking, she was actually trembeling, normally she would've been mad at how weak she was being, but right now she hurt just too much, it all hurt now, not just her heart anymore, it was her hole body that ached and she suddenly craved the comfort of his arms around her, she new it was the only thing to stop her trembeling, she hid her head and cryed, yes, Rukia Kuchiki was crying, but she didn't care, right now, it all hurt too much to care, and it hurt more than any sword or any hollow could inflict, the pain was so much worse, her shoulders shook as she went into slow hystariea,
Ichigo felt himself trembeling, she hated him? It was true? It was his worest nightmare, only this time, she really hated him? But if she hated him, why did he see such hurt in her eyes? There was something wrong with this picture, she looked hurt wen she said it, did he do something wrong? Wat had he done? He wished he new, he watched the rain as it began to fall, and then he made up his mind, he was going after her, even if she did hate him, he had to no if it was something he did wrong, he had to no, so he left to go get her,
She was still shaking, but this time it was because she was cold, she ran out of tears, she couldn't speak, she couldn't move, she just layed in the alley in a curled up ball, waiting, waiting for something, but she didn't no wat, she was too tired to keep crying, she suddenly felt someone standing over her, but she didn't bother to look up, she wasn't that weak that she had to, "Hey Midget," he spoke, she wanted to run, wanted to avoid him, but she was too tired, and right now, she just craved his touch, and that craving overwelmed her, "You alive?" he asked, "Yeah," she wispered, her voice quiter and much weaker than she had intended it to be, she felt him pick her up and start walking, she leaned her head against his chest and listened to the soft, steady beating of his heart, felt his warm breath on her neck, and his soft hands under her body, she breathed in his nice scent, he smelled like strawberries and some kind of spice that she couldn't put her finger on, but it was a very nice blend, "That was a really stupid thing you did Rukia," he stated, she loved his voice, it was soft and it was like a smoothe stream, even wen he was angry or upset, his voice still carried a sweet, soft, gentleness to it, and she loved it, she glanced up at his strawberry hair, she grinned a little bit, she traced her finger (wich was already pressed against his torso) and traced the muscels of his body through his wet shirt, she looked up at him, and there was worry on his face,
"Well, talk to me Rukia," she glanced up from her cup of hot choclate, she was in her jammies with a towel over her head, and she was sitting at the foot of his bed, she wasn't going anywere tonight, he made that obviouse, he was sitting opposite her in a simaler state, "I'm so sorry," she had regained her voice, "I don't hate you, I didn't think it would hurt you that much if I told you I did, I'm sorry," she didn't look at him, "Why would you think it wouldn't hurt me that much?! It's the worest pain I've ever felt! A million times worse than your brother's sword!" "I'm sorry," "Rukia, why do you want to leave?" "Do you really think I want to?!" "Wa- no, are they making you?!" "No, but, if I stay here, it'll just hurt more," "I don't get it, aren't you happy here? Did I do something wrong?" "No! But, Ichigo, I'll hurt you if I tell you why," "You can't hurt me anymore than you already have," "Ok, I'm in love with you, happy?" "Very," "Wat?!" "Rukia, you idiot, I love you too, so why do you want to leave?" "Because, being in love with you, I was so scared you'd reject me," "Rukia," he smiled, pulling on her hand (their cups were on the night stand) and laying her ontop of him, he kissed her lips gently, "Why would you think something so stupid?" "Because, why would you love someone like me wen you could love someone like Orahime? She likes you alot," "Because, there's a dier diffrence between you and her and every other girl, no wat it is?" "Um, you call me Midget?" "That too, but Rukia, you see, the diffrence is, wen I scowel, Orahime is upset, scared sometimes, but you think it's funny and laugh at me, I don't have to put on an act to make you happy, I can say anything and everything and you'll respond accordingly, responses come naturally to you, I'm me and you're you, it's that simple," Rukia smiled, and gripped his shirt tighter, "Look at that, the rain has finally stopped," he said,