(Note: For Thyme Girl! A MomoShiro!) I woundered that night, if I would ever have wat Rukia had, the lucky Rukia, no, I don't think she has the perfect life, with no problums, or that she, or anyone else is perfect, no I don't envy her, but sometimes, I do feel just a twinge of jealousy, but we all get jealouse, Rukia, the strongest Soul Reaper in Soul Society, asides from her overwelmingly powerful husband, her husband, she's married, she's deeply in love with him, and she will soon have a baby, I haven't told her yet, but I think she'll have twins, Rukia, to be cared for so much that Ichigo would risk his life to, not only become a Soul Reaper again, but rescue her, and protect her, to become stronger, beyond the binds of a mere substitute Soul Reaper, to become the Captin Commander of all things! To leave school, and home, and a normal teenage boy's life, and do you no, wen I asked him why, do you no wat he said? It wasn't just me who asked though, it was quite a few people, who asked wen they got married, and he said, "Only one reason, so that I will never lose her again" to have someone who loves you that much, and then to have been adopted into one of the most noble familys ever! And to escape- albeit just barely- exicution, to be the one girl out of every girl, not just Soul Reapers either, the one person out of every person to posses the hogyoku! Even though she had no clue it even exsisted, but still! But every time I get even just a little jealouse of her, I remember all the things that made her jealouse of someone, no, Rukia is too cool to get jealouse, well, maybe not, I don't no really, I mean, she was abanden as a baby, then, wen she finally had hope, she was taken in by nobles, wich isn't really the glitz and glamore everyone thinks it is, and then, to see her leitenit, and her idol die right before her very eyes, to have his blood stained on her face, that must be some sort of greif, then, to be sent on a mission, expecting to come home again, just another day, expecting that soon she'll be laughing with Kiyone, or, teasing Renji, just, being back home, but she didn't get to go back home, she was trapped in an unfamilar place for two months, not noing anyone or anything, or wat to do or were to go, having to completely rely on instinct and someone you just met, who, frankly, dosen't really like you that much anyway! Well, not for a little wile, and then, be sentenced to die in a matter of days, only to find out, that the person you love most is probably going to die, just to save you, to be thrown into aganizing emotional rollercoasters with, "I'm about to die, no, he just saved me, now he's about to die, no, someone else, no, me, no" for days on end, then learning in a matter of hours that you poses this magic crystal that everyone wants, and that you not only have a sister, but that she died, and that she was married to your adopted older brother and that was why he adopted you! And that's all in less than three months! Not to mention everything that follows all that, I'm personally surprised that she didn't go crazy! Although, Ichigo did mention something about bordering on suicidal, but, still, and then to be best freinds still with your child hood best freind! Toushiro and I are as close as ever, but I woundered if we could ever have wat Ichigo and Rukia have, if that's possible, if I were in Rukia's position, would he really be like Ichigo? Would he ever say "Only one reason, so I will never lose her again"? Would he ever fight impossible odds to see me again? Or to exceed his abilities so that I would always be with him?
That night, I remembered everything, and comparied it to Rukia and Ichigo, starting with the time that Toushiro woke up screaming, it was raining then, that I remember, it was the middle of autum, I awoke too a loud scream, wich scared me so badly that I rose up and my head on the back of the wall, ounce I got out of the short stupper, I remembered why I had waken up to recieve, a now growing, headache in the first place! I glanced over at the boy across the room, his eyes were wide, his breath unsteady, "Lil' Shiro?" I asked with concern, "Are you ok?" "Momo, it's my sister, I don't no were she is just that she was there wen I died!" I walked over to him, we were only little kids, I personally was quite happy that wen I died my family hadn't tailed behind me, not that I no of at least, I found it pleasent that they were happy in the world of the living and that I was happy here, they would join me someday, although, I guess not everyone can understand that sort of happiness, the older we got, the less we remembered about wat it was like in the world of the living, that's why I became a Soul Reaper, so that people, like Lil' Shiro, didn't carry that burden, I gripped him in my arms, and he started to cry, it was the first, and probably last, time I had seen him cry, I let him cry, I new he must have been close to his sister, I new he must have died tragically, and that there was probably some reason that he felt responsable for the two not remaning together, weather it was for her living or for him dying, I really didn't no, I didn't want to no, I had a feeling that no matter how he answered it, it would just leave me feeling worse than I did not noing, all I new, was that it was a tender open wound, that hadn't healed yet, "Wen you need to talk about it, I'll be there to listen," I wispered, and wen I said that, I felt the wound close up, just a little bit, it healed, just a little bit, he still has that wound, it isn't open anymore, it's been treated and dealt with, so it dosen't hold him back, 'That,' I thought, 'was exactly wat Rukia said, wen Ichigo told her that he lost his mother, and that, she was able to heal over time,' I was quite proud of myself, considering that I new how to do something at that age, but then, so I was able to comfort him, that's still on my part, right? So wat have I proven to myself? Well, as expected, since the World Of The Living team's triophth, we had all become very close and did nearly everything together, so, that night, before Rukia's wedding, she sat down with me, and a few other girls, and we talked untill late, actually, that's how I was able to smuggle this golden information out without acting suspicouse, and that's wat I compared my memories to, like this one,
The next thing I had to compare to was wen Rukia was taken back to Soul Society, well, I had never been kidnapped, but someone tryed ounce, as expected though, he was some old bafoon and all Toushiro had to do to "Rescue me" was spit some watermelon seeds at him, then, grab my arm and run, Rukia and Ichigo hadn't kissed untill they had said their "I love yous" although neither had we, then, there were all the injuries that were to be healed between the two, cuts to be bandeged, bruises to be healed, scrapes to be covered, nearly everything to be of some sort of medication, Rukia said that she had used up so much kido in two months on Ichigo alone that it was rediculouse! She said that somehow out of those two months-except before the first night ofcourse- she had somehow escaped seriouse injury, but wen she WAS hurt, Ichigo was able to heal her, after that she had always been healed by Orahime, I asked why she sounded so disapointed and she said, "It was nice, being healed by Ichigo, I didn't realize then how much I wanted those moments not to end, regardless of the pain, there were these moments, with Ichigo, the ones were he looks at you, and no's that even if he's mad, he must be gentle and soft, and calm and quite, Kido however holds no such rule, so, I got to expereince that, and it was very nice, seeing his soft side, although it didn't last long," I felt so special, and a little sorry for her, she only got a few of those moments, but me, those times that Lil' Shiro and I expereienced that were wounderfull, now that I look back on them I relieze that I wouldn't give up those moments for anything, like the one time wen we were kids, how he was mad at me for spitting watermelon seeds at him, even though he did that to me, so I climbed up a tree, he looked so funny! All mad and frustrrated, I couldn't help laughing, and sure enough, I ended up tumbling backwards and right out of the tree, well, I had a cut leg as you can imagine, but wen I saw me, lying in a heap on the ground crying, I could see the anger in his face melt away, "Momo," he spoke softly, "I'll be right back, stay here" and he took off, returning moments later with medicine and bandeges, and a wet cloth, he cleaned up the wound, the water felt cold on my skin, then he took some of the medicine, "This'll hurt a bit" he warned, as he put the anticeptic on my cut, I woundered then why they made medicine that hurt? Then he covered it neatly with a bandege and smiled at me softly, years later wen we became Soul Reapers I hurt my arm in a simaler fashion, only the wound was bigger and deeper, before he left to go get someone from squad four I asked him if he would treat it the way he did back then, "Momo, I can't use kido" he warned before rolling up my sleve, that's why he carrys that pack of medical supplies with him, I didn't care that it hurt, I just wanted that moment back, because Toushiro was trying to drift away from me at the time, I wanted him back, and so, it amazeses me still that I'm going to have a baby, most likely with Lil' Shiro's wite hair and green eyes, maybe not though, I relize now that those moments I wanted so badly that I was so jealouse of Rukia for, were actually right here beside me, with the moonlight shining on us both