One again my heart is in pain and i fight to understand how i will recover this time;
If i would of never let it out in the first place then maybe i wouldn't be alone trying to fix what is no longer held together;
With all the excuses on why it happened i just don't believe i have the strength to look up no more.
All i hear is cheers on how it may get better...
Don't give me such lies. I don't want them and your words mean nothing...don't you got a lover? ain't your life grand?how about you leave me out of it;
I think i like being in m shell away from humanity. No one can hurt you if they can't find your heart;
No one will ever hurt me again, not ever again.
Stupid emotions...
Always getting in the way, always crushing what bit of heaven i have, always giving me a reason to cry;
I don't need no light neither do i need a friend who can save me. If you try you'll just disappear in the near future;
Emotions are my biggest flaw and leaves me exposed out in this system which only hold excuses for reason and opinions for logic.
Tonight i remove my heart ..keep it...I'm use to the hole in my chest.
:I'm not even gonna leave my name..screw it.
Waking up to birds singing is sometimes the best tunes i have heard. Sure its simple but lately in life everything has a system or some strange code which makes it work as a normal project...Too much i think.
[Happy to see me....
Fuji:*sits up in hospital bed as he removes the covers* its been weeks since that day (thinks back to Mitsko and her sister) I never got the name of her sister now that i think about it *takes out Iv as he places he feet on the cold hospital floor* I have a promise to keep *walks over to the window and places one hand on the glass as he looks down* here I come Mitsko *jumps out of window breaking the glass*
=Somewhere unknown=
Mitsko:Sister Fuji isn't a bad person *fumbles with finger tips*
Julie:*glares* Now does that truly matter in your case?
Mitsko:*looks down* I'm tired of being alone sis *tears form*
[don't cry.....
Fuji:*free falling towards the ground as he places his hands together and pictures Mitsko* Don't cry my love *hits the ground with such impact that the surface cracks open and pieces of the road are sent flying*
=Unknown area=
Fuji:*lands in the lower tunnels of some unknown city* Time to get what was taken from me *starts walking as his ears and tail turn a dark black with just a bit of white near the ends*
=Back to Mitsko=
Julie:*turns around sharply* He has returned *smirks* but this time in my field how lovely *disappears all of a sudden*
Mitsko:*wipes eyes* Fuji...?
[Sometimes you must fight for what you want...
Fuji:*walks slowly through the broken city and stops in med-step* So...you found me i see *turns around* So what is your name?
Julie:*smirks* why must you know?
Fuji: Well i would like to know the persons name of who life i'm killing *cracks claws*
Julie:*smiles* Cocky are we^^ *disappears*
Fuji:*Places a hand on the ground as ears flare*
Julie: *appears to the left side of Fuji* DIE!! *swings a mighty blow*
Fuji:*stands on one hand as he blocks the blow with the heel of his shoe as he spins off of his one hand and kicks Julie hard in the face* As you can see maybe cocky wouldn't be the word for his matter *stands ready* So you name is?
Julie:My name is Julie and you might want to remember that name on your way to hell *eyes fade into a blurry gray*
Fuji:Really what a lovely name *smiles showing K-9 teeth* well Julie how about i send you to your hellish wonder and you can tell me all about it *bites thumb letting blood dip on the floor* This is what you call an SS model *energy shoots from all directions as his fur turns a bright red as so as his eyes*
Julie:*glares* You think you can defeat me!!
Fuji:*smirks as he stares at his palms* For Mitsko i can defeat anyone...
-I have returned for you my love.
End-chap 8
=Mellow
To those of you who know me you will know right away that this is more then just a simple poem...its a movement in my life;
So here i go. Maybe it will crumble but i won't know until i take the first step;
I'm ready to live on the edge you know. I rather have an unknown blessing then a sad story any day.
So I'll try just this time...
I want to live again and feel the rush of free falling just one more time;
There is some hope in this crazy pool of mine and maybe i won't drown after all;
So I'll grab on to my love ones and face another battle;
Sometimes you just got to go against your laws and they to try the freedom of living, the enjoyment of waking of, I'm not dead yet;
This goes against my logic in many ways but what can't be seen is always what we are looking for.
Don't worry about tomorrow let tomorrow worry for itself...
I'm prepared to defeat the anger that fuels my hateful words
I may be in the dark for now...
But I'm taking back the light one day at a time.
`Robert Burton a.k.a Mellow
Bubble my flesh and drink it like wine as i try to pull away from my own errors that i hold inside;
But even with me pushing i won't be let out until i have made peace with such evil that has made a home inside me;
I can't help but compare my life to the free birds who can reach anything they dream.
The hate is finally coming out..
For some reason i plea with myself to find help when i know that I'll only push those away who try;
Sadly it has came to my attention that maybe i am truly the demon you see on the outside;
Some would say I'm a mellow type of guy but the truth is that behind these walls there is chaos begging to be let out.
Hate is a strong word...
But i grasp it in hand without a second thought believing i can crush all who face me until the bitter end;
I haven't smiled in months do to such grim facts but then again i haven't tried to live either;
Would you say i'm dead inside?
I would....
There use to be a young boy who could defend his joy even when the world itself turned gray;
I use to be the person with a smile that even the sun himself would envy but now even the stars won't look at me;
Sometimes i wish this all was a story....
So the agony would just end.
`Robert Burton a.k.a Mellow
Life is so lame. So so so lame i must say if it was up to me i would break my stupid phone and walk off never to be heard from again....i'm fed up with everything in my life and i just don't care.
People say i should relax and to those people i say shove it first of all this ain't no kitty kitty land and this ain't some anime with some heroic message behind it...this is my damn life doesn't anyone get that. All i hear is what more i can do to make my stupid hell hole better.
DON'T THEY F-ING GET IT!!!
This is my damn life so stop looking at me like i'm so mental person with poor issue. I just don't get this society anymore people keep telling that i complain and shit when they haven't faced what i faced or went through what i did...i fought all year last time for nothing does anyone see that nope...not at all.
Screw the world and its pitiful fake happy happy joy joy.
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