Coooooosplay.

So, for Ohayocon 2009, I'm planning on cosplaying Edward Elric from the FMA Movie. Mostly because he's the only 'version' of Eddie that is my height.

But I can't find any reference pictures of his movie outfit. D: Could anyone help me out...?

Grim Reaper Curse

My mother said something poetic this morning. That I had some sort of "Grim Reaper Curse" because I have just lost my fourth friend in just over a year.

I never met him in person, but he was a good friend, and I loved him very dearly, like a brother.

This sucks. Why is it everybody that I know? Can't I go a whole damn year without someone close to me dying?

Now I know why people say that life isn't fair. Because death always cheats you.

Somehow...

Code Geass is the only anime that has repeatedly made me cry. I don't cry easily, for anything. Hell, one of my best friends died over two months ago, and I still haven't cried over that. Not that I'm some heartless bitch or anything...

I'm warning you, here are spoilers.

First, when Euphemia died. That broke my goddamn heart. Suzaku was so sad, and so was Lelouch! No one was happy.

Then, when Nunnally was sent to be the Viceroy of Area 11. Lulu was depressed, and so was I!

And now, possibly the most heartbreaking event of all. Just as they became a "couple" in Ashford Academy, Lelouch has to witness the death of the girl who has fallen in love with him not once but thrice. He was so heartbroken when Shirley died, and you could see it.

Life is cruel.

You know what sucks? You know what really sucks?

Mr. Roleplayer, from my last post?

The day after we had that fight, his sister ran out into the street, got hit by a car, and killed.

Life is too damn cruel.

Some people...

Hate to spam your watchboxes with ranting, but I have to vent somewhere.

First, let me ask a question. It's perfectly human to feel jealousy, right?

Well, apparently, someone doesn't think so. This girl, who has absolutely NO business sticking her nose into something that's not even her business, decided to royally piss me off. Let me tell you the story, here...

I have a less-than-perfect family. Workaholic and money addicted mom, epileptic dad, bratty as hell sister. My dog hates me, my cats laze around, and instead of being a family, we're pretty much a bunch of people (and animals) that laze around in the same house.

And here comes one of my roleplaying partners, bragging about his perfect fiance, his perfect son, his perfect roommate, his perfect EVERYTHING. So, it's perfectly natural to be jealous of someone who has all the good things in life handed to them on a silver platter, right?

Well, little miss "I can't keep my bulbous nose out of things that don't pertain to me" decides to go behind my back and tell my girlfriend that I have "bad vibes" and that she should leave me because I could potentially hurt her.

All because I was jealous. This idiot thinks that jealousy is inhuman, and that if you're jealous, you, first off, can't communicate to her, because she doesn't want to get "infected," and second, you're an all-around evil person.

Now, if she had said that I had "bad vibes" to my face, I wouldn't have so much of a problem with it, and I would have just told her off and been done with it. But she had to go behind my back and say it to my girlfriend.

So, as to be expected, the moment I found out, I got on her case. And then she started twisting my words and told the roleplayer with the perfect life what I was saying, with an extra dose of her bullshit on top, and made me look like the bad guy. Apparently, Mr. Roleplayer, who, might I add, is an adult, with a job, a kid, and a life, ran and locked himself in his bathroom and bawled his eyes out, because some bitch twisted around what I said.

Then, Mr. Roleplayer's fiance comes online, and starts cursing me out, for being honest and saying exactly what I felt. If Mr. Roleplayer is too much of a baby to suck it up, I decided, then I wouldn't roleplay with him anymore. Then the fiance blocked me, and my girlfriend, who was defending me, and said "-insert backstabber's name here- Has always been -insert Mr. Roleplayer's name here- only true friend, and I'm glad she told us the truth about you."

So I went back to the backstabbing bitch and told her what had happened, and she said "Well, you deserve it for being jealous. -insert Mr. Roleplayer's name here- was horribly abused in his childhood." Well, whoop-de-frickin-do for him. The past is the past. You can't change that. Now he's living on the top of the world and decides to rub it in my face, when I'm currently living in a bad situation? That's a load of Grade A bullshit.

Now, this hasn't been my first conflict with people like her. So, keeping in mind the last time I'd been in a fight with someone on line, I told her exactly as follows. {If you're offended by it in any way, I'm sorry, I don't mean to offend you. However, I mean to offend her one-hundred percent. I may sound like a cruel bitch, but when you're mad, you can't say that you don't want to say things like this, too.)

"I can see now why you're attacking me like this; because you want to be the center of attention. You take your past hardships and keep bringing them up, and I'll tell you this. If you wanna go picking fights with me, take a Bible and get in line. You're a failed lesbian, might as well shove as much God up your ass as you can handle before you explode. You're so damn clingy that God probably even wouldn't want you. Lay off of my girlfriend, lay off of me, and go shove your problems up someone else's ass."

I don't mean to dump any of this on any of you, but I had to vent somewhere. I hope you understand.

-OA