Loneliness And Depression

You have an empty feeling that comes from within
You long to share your feelings but no one will listen
You reach out for open arms, but nobody is there
Your tears fall to the ground, but nobody cares
You pick up the phone, but have no one to call
You feel overwhelmed; your mind is a crawl
You lay in your bed in the light of the moon
Just so you don't see those who aren't there for you
The flames spark inside you and heat up your fear
Your thoughts are suicidal, your days are so drear
Emotional fires burn up in your head
Fires of love and pain and regret
Consumed in your own darkness, you slowly fade away
Your once blue and sunny sky has turned to clouds of gray

©Rebekah Johnson,12 May 2008

loose leaf~not rhym-y

With heart hammering like crazy, I run
Adrenaline pumping through my veins, my system, under tha light of tha moon~
I keep goin and going until i feel a stitch in my side
Reach my point of exhaustion want to collapse but my will power is strong
Keep going so that tomorrow everything hurts. Stay and do everything normally
But tha tiniest thing is labored to tha extreme~
Wait and stretch until tha soreness is gone.

My strength is my beauty~
Knowing that I can pick up and left what those weaklings could not.
Legs so tight with power, I feel as if I could fly~
Running, with tha wind seeming to push against me
Lungs that could rival a mermaid's~
Cartwheels, back-flips, kick stands, I am infatiated with my body.

I dont need your definition of Beauty. I have my own.
But even by your standards, I am 'okay'
I'd give it anything to be able to find some one stronger, faster,
so that I'd be able to see my limits, and keep adding

To be strong is to be beautiful

Spiders Veno

Every time I see them, i can taste the venom the throw at me. I lay low, and cower in the corners, try not to bring attention to myself~~~~~~~~~~

OKAY! i just finished watching Blood In, Blood Out, and the movie KICKED ASS!! unlike Twilight, which SUCKED ass..THe Books are AWESOME, but the movie..well i think it was just a waste of time and money

One day we'll run away

And we can run, from the backdrop of these gears and scalpels
At every hour goes the tick-tock band of monitors as
The stared us down when we met in the emergency room
And in our beds, I could hear you breathe with help from cold machines

Every hour, on the hour, they drew blood

Well I felt I couldn't take, another day inside this place
From silent dreams we never wake, and in this promise that we'll make
Starless eyes for heaven's sake, but I hear you anyway
Well I thought I heard you
Say I like you, we can get out
We don't have to stay, stay inside this place

Someday, this day, we kept falling down
Someday, this day, set the ferris wheel ablaze
You left my heart an open wound
And I love you for
This day, someday we kept falling down
One day, this day all we had to keep us safe
And if we never sleep again, it would never end
Well I thought I heard you say to me
We'll go so far, far as we can
And I just can't stay, one day we'll run away

My heart is numb,dead,freezing

My best friend Lylia moved away a while back, about 3 months. I was completly desolate. Sure i had other friends, but...i felt so.....numb. Nothing affected me. I even got mad at my brther, Page7. Me and him, well, we're REALLY close. i still cant believe i took it out on him......But remember Bella? When Edward left her, and she was a total wreck? Thats how i felt. And today,she came! Can you guys BELIEVE IT??? ALL THE WAY FROM LUBBOCK, TeXAS! i felt like falling to my knees, and just holding her. We spent all of today together. But she left. Now, I will NEVER see her again. I cried, and i cryed today just opened up old wounds, it like today poured limon and salt in the wound. I cooked for the family, and i used alot of onions, so that i could cry in peace. i feel so broken. I need good, LOUD music to block out my thoughts. Please?
comment or PM. I really need an outlet right now..

huuuuuuuuuu

I am jealous of every
girl who has ever
hugged you because,'
for one whole moment they
had my whole world
in their arms
MADE IN 2ND HOUR

i get the best feeling
in the world when you
say hi to me or even
smile because i know
that even if for a second,
i know i crossed your mind!
MADE AFTER BODY WORKS