i have been fricken out so much latley and so because of it now i can't hardly cry at all!!!! and it's painful no matter how hard i try i can't cry. the only thing i can do is a few lil tears here and there for like a few seconds or 2 minutes.but that will never make up for all the crying i missed out on.i would have to berst out into crying flames and cry hard for hours and hours for days in order for me to feel good again and for it to make up for all the crying i couldn't do. my dad is ruining my life. #.# because of my dad already ruining a big gap in my life i'm suicidle now i hope i spelled that right.and i just wish that i could get a gun from some one and shoot myself in the head so no one can save me.there is no other way of killing your self.